Monday, December 2, 2013

May



 

“If you can't find a friend, then make one".  Sound familiar?  May took that little  quote literally one step too far.  

Another saying is, "Idle hands are the Devil's Playground"?  Well in this case, it is more like "Lonely souls are the Devil's Center Stage", because loneliness is what led May to murder.  And May was lonely.  Her only friend was Susie, a doll who lived in a glass box.  Susie was her only friend her whole life.  As a child May was forced to wear an eye patch just to cover her lazy eye that her vanity case of a mother was very ashamed of, hence, alienating her from the rest of the children.  It is not hard to figure out where the social awkwardness stemmed from.  And for May, there was something dark inside her lonely existence. 


If you have seen May, everything should make sense in your mind.  All you have to do is study the life of Jeffery Dahmer then you will understand what kind of horrors exist within a lonely soul.  However, the issue is not just her being a crazy psycho who does away with those who have rejected her by dismembering body parts of theirs to her liking, in order to create that one "perfect" friend. May wanted that one friend she could touch and hold, and for her Susie didn't suffice.  After all, Susie was just a doll right?  But that bond between girl and doll, an inanimate object, somehow brought life into Susie.  And in my opinion, that is the real issue.  The bond not between May and her love interest Adam, or her lesbian fling Polly, but between her and Susie.  Susie had a dependency on May that would hinder any possibility of her having a successful relationship with another human being.  But Susie wasn't just a doll. I honestly believe she was a mirror image of May.  Not just in appearance but what she represents. May wasn't the only outcast.  Susie was locked in a glass box, unable to be free and unable to be touched.  There is a parallel to May in that regard.  May was bound by something holding her back, keeping her "locked in".  She was unable to interact with society in a typical way, and her "weirdness" invited rejection it seems.  We could blame it on her childhood.  She had absolutely no social skills and misdirected boundaries.  She wasn't entirely "free".  Her introversion was what kept her "locked in" just like Susie.  In a nutshell, May's emotional state was equivalent to a lifeless inanimate object; hollow.  With May leaning forward towards human interaction, rejecting Susie, Susie's glass box that imprisoned her would crack.  And with every ounce of rejection May would encounter, she got closer and closer to cracking as well.  And when Susie broke free, literally, so did May.

I don't have to remind you of the heinous murders May committed and why.  It goes without saying especially if you have seen the movie.  If you recall, Jeffery Dahmer and Ted Bundy had one overlying complex; rejection.  Although Dahmer hated to kill, he just wanted that one consistent partner who would never leave him.  And so did May.  May is every Criminal and Forensic Psychologists wet dream.  And I don't have a PHD or a Doctorate to conduct a clinical analysis on anybody, but it is not difficult to see that May was disturbed.  What her illness was, we can guess all night.  I honestly do feel in a way that she wanted to experience love and acceptance but did not really know how to go about sustaining it so she latched onto "perfect body parts" as a substitute. For her, love was objectified without her realizing it.   At least, while the person rejects her, their body parts wont once she does away with them right?  So in a psychologically twisted way, was this normal? 

From beginning to end we knew how desperate May was to find that "love".  So desperate that she gave her right eye for that one true love...literally.